December 31, 2010

Fool's Gold

I like to think of today, the last day of the year, as a year of purging and renewal. I'm grateful for an annual time to evaluate and start anew, especially this year. The past few months have been grueling for me, in many ways that I can't even explain, but that have affected the deep pockets of my heart. I feel in a way as if I got on a merry-go-round and I haven't been able to see straight or find my way, as much as I have tried.

Evidently, the trying has been my problem. I have tried to figure things out, to take control of every little thing, to please people, and to make things happen the way I want them to.

This morning, I read Paul's words in 2 Corinthians 1: "We were burdened beyond measure, above strength....that we should not trust in ourselves but in God who raises the dead."

Once again, the Lord reminded me that trusting in myself is fool's gold. This doesn't happen often, but today I feel like He spoke to me so clearly that I wrote it down. I write it here in hopes that it allows you to start anew with the coming of the new year.

It's not up to you--trust Me. I love you and will do what's best for you. Stop striving and rest in Me. One step and one day at a time is what it takes. It hurts me when you care more about what other people think than what I think. When you do that, you're chasing fool's gold.

You don't need to worry about every little thing nor pursue the affections of others. I will be your leader, your encourager, your comforter. I will give when you are given out. Look to Me for those things and enjoy the gifts I give you.

I carry the burdens. Give them to Me. They are not yours to carry--you were not designed to carry them.  

"Cast all your cares upon Him, for He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7